00:00 AM

A new day begins,

a new start for everything, 

maybe the start for the best day of your life.

You just have to get up and try your best

to make it one of those days 

you will remember forever. 

School

Back to school. That is a term so many of us despise because we might just had the summer of our lives. Motivation isn't really there because you know those first days in school are absolute for nothing, because you are just sitting there and EVERY teacher is repeating the rules of the school and saying you what new stuff you need for the new year (or they like to talk about their holidays, which is something do not really want to hear). For me, I haven't either the summer of my life nor did I have much motivation for going to a new school. Even though firstly I was excited to go, as soon as I saw the class list and found out they put me in a class with  fifteen year old girls and that in the class wasn't be found one single boy - only 26 girls - my motivation dropped pretty much.

But here I am, nearly four months later, soon it is christmas. The time there at this school wasn't as bad, as I expected it to be but none the less, I am excited for winter vacation which starts this friday.
I really need this holidays, this school takes up a lot of my energy which led me to be sick quiet frequently. It is not just the school work there, the people there I have met slowly drive me crazy. Sometimes I do not know what to say or what to do, to make things right because in the end it seems like all that I do turns out wrong. I am so glad that this is the last week this year I am spending there, I really want to get away and spend my time with things that aren't school related and do again what I love.

Reading
Sleeping
Spending time with my friends
Going to the cinema
Snowboarding
Drawing
Tea
Good food
...
just things that make me forget those challenges I have to face everyday at school, even though it isn't always related to work there I have to keep up with, as I say persons there drive me literally crazy.

In order to keep my mind a little bit of school and those things that happen that place, I am going to blog I little bit over the holidays, because you know, I think I might have time for it again.

Music Saturday - Playlist October

It has been a long time since I have written something about music and I have been listening to a bunch of new music this past month, after I have been to the local music festival here in Zurich where I discovered some new Artists and people I met there introduced and recommended some new things I really should listen to.

So basically this is just another playlist that I put together for this month and September so here we go:

ALT-J - Intro  + Taro

(Alt-J isn't actually THAT new to me(that much of a hipster am I), but that last week I bought myself their CD and I cannot stop listening to them)

POLICA - Dark Star 

MILES KANE - Don't forget who you are 

SWIM DEEP - Intro + The Sea

SOHN - Bloodflows

SLOW CLUB - Two Cousins + Beginners 

LORDE - Tennis Court 

DILLON - Thirteen Thirtyfive 

LOCAL NATIVES - You & I 

PHOENIX - Lisztomania + Love like a Sunset

(Well Isn't that matching: I am a lisztomaniac ha-ha)

JAKE BUGG - Seen It All 

Why do I find myself
In a place like this
hopeless
alone
sad
Everything here reminds me
of a place
far back in time
Melancholia
wraps its cold fingers
again
around my trembling body.

BLACK

It is strange how fast things can change, turn from good to bad:
Once again I find myself after a short great time in that black hole again, where I feel empty and sad. I do not even know why, just yesterday I had one of those really good times, I fell in love all over again. But now, not even twenty-four hours later, everything seems impossible to cope with. And in times like these, where I just need somebody to listen, not a soul seem to have time to sit down for a little chat. It would help a lot, writing down doesn't do it for a long time, it's only a short time relief.
Yesterday, I told myself that I would stop with the bad habits that are destroying myself, because I felt on top of the world and I though I could do it. But here I am, breaking the promises I made myself, listening to sad songs.

Why does it seem like that the good times only last a short time and the bad times come around much more often?

Spark

"Do I start at the end or do I end at the start?" 

I  am always wondering if people do understand what the word 'creativity' really means. Because being creative isn't only meant for art or writing. You can be creative in so many ways, in music, in cooking, yes even in daydreaming and talking to people. As long as you try out new things, invent yourself everyday new, every activity that you like to do can be creative.
It's sad that people use that term only for a tinny section of their life, even though creativity comes from create

to create something new 

something that was your idea

an idea formed in your thoughts

and your mind is something 

nobody else  out there can steal from you.

I believe that everyone has a spark of creativity in their heart, no matter what they do. It is something that makes us human and unique and every person, different by their looks and characters is in his own way creative. Sometimes you have to dig a long time in the dirt before you find your thing or even sometimes you do not even realise it has been he whole time in front of you. Find something that you love to do, even if it takes a long time to get there: I  did two extra years of education, do I regret it? No, I have found my way, I found what I like to do and who I want to be. 

It's not a shame to take the long way around, in the end you might have seen a lot more and you made so many new experiences that you might not have made if you had took the short cut. 

Just do not give up too early, because when you do, you might give up on you life. 

Shell

These days this blog is more and more becoming my personal space and it almost feels as if this is my weekly diary. And I am getting more and more fond of that idea, that I share a bit more from my life and open up a bit, even though it is just on the internet.
When I am thinking back, a year ago, the hardest thing for me was to talk to some random strangers. I was so scared that I would say something terribly wrong, that they would leave because they didn't like me. Eventually most of them did, only those who could break through my shell and got to me close, those are people I call friends now these days.
But now after a really eventful year and some incredible persons I have met, I learn slowly to open up a bit more and let them into my life. Just when I am looking back on the past weekend, where I met so many lovely people at the local music festival (gonna write about that soon!) I noticed it gets more and more easier the older you get. Oh gosh. I sound like a grand-ma, who's sitting in her chair on her porch.
Anyways what I mean, I learned a lot from experiences and I had to learn that you often do not have to care about what people think of you, unless they are really important to you. In that case they know you well enough and love you for who you are (I am repeating me here) and I hopefully think the only want the best for you. I know 'loosing' yourself can be scary and a long process but in the end you might have made some awesome memories. For me, I still have a long way to go until I let most of my walls down. Most of the days, I tell myself "You have nothing to loose" if I want to try out something new or something that I might not be brave enough and it helps me to get those things done. Sometimes it just might be something silly like getting a phone number or giving a hug to person you barely know. Those little things can make your day in the end 1000 times better.

Do things while you have the chance to, because maybe one day it is too late to realize your dreams.

Friendship.

The last few days I met a lot of new people and I think I found some new friends. I already knew someone out of my class before and we really got to know each other the last couple of weeks and I love her to pieces. If I am honest, I lost contact with her (we went to school together once) and it is amazing how people find each other again, after not hearing from either one for more than a year.
Anyways, the last couple of days, I thought a lot about friendship and what it means to have a good, functional friendship. Sometimes friendship needs the same amount of attention like a relationship does. Mostly because it is some sort of relationship, just with friends and you haven't got a real commitment to them. That isn't in every friendship the case, even most of them are easy and you give and take without you even knowing. Some friendships come with a huge amount of commitment (that shouldn't really be there, as I said before) and dedication, just because you like them a lot and you want to befriended with them it doesn't mean it is easy. Some people need a lot of time until they open up to you and you really get to know them. Mostly, those are the (drunk) late night talks you have to them, when they feel secure. I have to admit, I am not an easy person to be a friend of, sometimes I can give some people a really hard time, maybe because I do not know how to handle the situation or I do not want to open up to them.
Lately, when I talked to my friend (who goes to school with me now) over a gin-tonic about how we all have bad side to us and what we think is ours. And I said that I hate it when someone invades my personal space, someone I do not really know is touching me or want to hug me. That I something I really do not like about myself, because in the end I think I push people away with my behaviour, I should be more open minded. I do not mean with that I should let people easily get into my life, I just think that I should lower my walls a little bit more. With people I barely know, I normally do not share any personal things out of my life. Except, I feel comfortable with, which happened with the very true friends I still have by side.
But as such talks go on, you learn that the friend that really know, live with all you faults and how you do not like yourself how you are; they accept you, sometimes more than you ever will accept yourself.

Pattern/ Summer day

   

t-shirt H&M

skirt VINTAGE

belt H&M

sandals HALLHUBER

I do no feel like writing today so I rather show what I am wearing. Tomorrow is my birthday and I feel so not motivated for all this celebration that is planed. 

 

I FEEL LIKE CRYING

I am turning eighteen in about forty-nine hours for crying out loud. I makes me so nervous to know that I am going to be an adult in so little time and it scares me. With every second the date of my birth gets nearer also my nervousness grows in my chest. I do not know if I should be excited or if I should be wishing for a little bit more time before I am a grown-up. Not mentally, hell no, sometimes I wish I could be forever six-teen, because when I look back to the time I was sixteen, those have been the easiest days in my life.
And now that it is coming to my eighteenth birthday, I realise once more how difficult and stressful it can be having divorced parents. I want to see them both for my birthday, but my dad is not at home as well not over the weekend, which leaves only thursday night for having dinner together. And that leaves only friday noon for my mother to celebrate with me, because in the evening I am out with some friends of mine. Well I said my dad wouldn't be around over the weekend: It could be cool having the home all to myself, for having a party, but tonight I made another realisation: It actually sucks to have your birthday in mid-july: The most part of the friends I wanted to invite are away in just some exotic place, chilling out in the sun at the beach.
And this whole situation of organising a party and handling my birthday, is stressing me out so much, I feel I am getting sick. Not only mentally, physically as well. I am always tired even if I did sleep for over ten hours and I feel my throat is hurting again.
This probably all a big mistake, because I am already whining about on my blog and this so not going to be fun for me. Why should I be positive about a thing that leaves me so unhappy before it actually happened?

Hamburger Bahnhof - Berlin

I have been in Berlin, again, a few weekends ago. This time was just a little bit different, I did only went for three short days and I got to go with a good friend of mine. Still with my mother but we had some space and could do for most of the time what we wanted. Which included shopping, eating and strolling around the city. Sometimes we even didn't know where we were going.
After those intense days I was so happy I got home safely and could sleep again in my very own bed.

So Berlin: The city is so interesting but not a bit pretty. Yes, there might be some places who are nice to look at, but for the most part... not so much. But that's not why you go to Berlin. It's because you want to feel the energy of the city and how is changing every time you go. I have been in October for the first time and a lot has changed in only those eight months. The people are different, they are lovely non the less. They are openminded and nice to everyone. Most who live there have a smile plastered on their faces, which I find impossible in a city like this.
As I said I saw so many things, most of the places we were I have visited before, mostly because my friend never has been to Berlin and she wanted to see those things as well. Not that I did mind, I love the places we revisited and I got to discover new things.
One of the places we were was the 'Hamburger Bahnhof', which is the oldest train station in Berlin, but it got turned in into an museum for modern art. And how the transformed it, how the building works together with the artwork is amazing. It is hard to describe in words but I love it so much, I wished I could have stayed a little longer

Fire/Feuer - Martin Honert 

Mirage/ Fata Morgana - Martin Honert 

The English Teacher  - Martin Honert 

All of the pictures above I have taken back in October, all made in the main hall, where all the changing exhibitions take place. 

There are many places in Berlin I haven't seen yet and I will definitely go back more than once in the future. I have a feeling that this city is going to be one of my favourites among London and my own hometown Zurich, because it is so different from those two, still searching its very own personality.

Remember: My Birthday is coming up in twelve days, yeah.

- I promise

I know I haven't written in ages and I have only to blame myself for it. I am not really busy at the time, so much time to spare and the only thing that is stressing me out is if I should wake up before ten or if should I sleep in. Again. I have that certain feeling, if I sleep longer than ten o'clock I would do nothing productive or active for the rest of the day and I end up watching a whole season of a series that I do not even like.
When it is time for dinner and my parents ask what I did the hole day, I have to pretend I did not hear them asking, they would forget anyways after my brother rescued me, or I say that I wrote so much for my blog, which I... did not really do.
Well I did, I have a lot of drafts, but I do not feel like finishing them off and publishing them. Certainly I am to lazy and in the end I feel guilty for not putting anything up on to my blog.
Although in the end that is something I do only for myself and I told myself that I won't give ip on this thing to fast.
So from now on, my dear Rag-Bag, I shall take a little bit more care of you and update at least once a week until the end of summer. - I promise

Oh and before I forget, my birthday is in sixteen days, that's the daily reminder to everyone.

'Neues Museum' Berlin - My work

  

I have taken this pictures back in October when I was in Berlin for a few days and I was impressed by the city and how it is still searching its identity. At every corner there is a story to be told and on many old buildings you can still see the signs from long lost times. As you can see them on the building of the 'Neue Museum', there still many scars of the war and many lost treasures, but it was still really impressive. I have taken so so so many pictures there, but I still managed to pic very few for now.

Being productive and Procrastination

For many the year/semester is ending by the beginning of summer and with the end many tests and exams are coming up. Well, my time at school has already ended... But I have next week as well an important CAE exam, for which I am currently revising for.

And personally for me and probably for a lot of students , studying comes always in package with something else: Procrastination. 

In the past, before this year art school, I ended up pretty often on tumblr or somewhere else on this Internet and I did hardly anything for upcoming test or projects. Which led me to an all-nighter the night before the due time for the project or to a bad grade. 

Anyway, within this year at this school I had hardly any studying to do. Mostly the work was done in school and what I did at home was more or less additional and something I did not mind to do. So with that I could concentrate revising for my upcoming English Exam and I could try out what works best for me when I am revising. 

• Unplug yourself: With 'unplug' I mean shut everything down that could distract you from what you should be doing. Always when I am revising I turn off my computer and put my phone on flight mode. The internet is a dangerous place to loose time and get caught off with cute kittens instead of Math. 
• The right place: Search a place where you feel comfortable. For me works best a solid table and a room that gets enough air and light. When the weather is warm enough and the sun is shining, I have an nice place outside on our terrace. 

In winter I used to sit at the very end of the dining table so I could look on the lake. When you open the window it feels like you are sitting outside.

• Be organised: Before you start, collect all the things you might be needing for the task you need to complete. I get to easily distracted when I have to search something during a 'revising session' because other things are way more interesting than calculating. 
• Make a playlist: Yes, for some music can be distracting while working, but music helps me to focus on the task. When there wouldn't be music I would get to distracted by the silence and my own thoughts (if that makes sense). 

          Here are a few songs I revise to;         Junior Walker & The All Stars - Cleo's Mood 

                                                                     The xx - Sunset 

                                                                      Young Man - Unfair

                                                                      The Gorillaz - Rhinestone Eyes   

                                                                      The Ramones - I Remember You   

                                                                      Florence + the Machine - What the Water Gave Me 

• Food and beverages: Prepare a little snack (in case you get hungry or bored) and bring a bottle of water as well. Staying hydrated is important! 
• BREAK: I always plan little breaks into my 'sessions'. Not long ones, sometimes it even just helps when I have a quick dance party to my music. 
• After you are finished (or in the process) I recommend making a list of the things you have done and on what you think you could improve. Yes, to do list might help, but for me those do not work, I feel as it would force me and I think learning and revising is in the end something we do all for ourselves, so it is more or less something we do all voluntary. 

And if you have to work on your computer, then try to avoid the internet, unless it is necessary: For that I have always post-its on my side so I can write down all the sides that caught my eye and I think I could visit afterwards and things I have to look up later, because I tend to forget those things. 

Because for me the Internet is the most distracting thing ever. 

Procrastination - Packing for Cannes

Monday afternoon; god, normally I hate this day. Not that I hate it today, but it is my first day of my summer vacation and I really should be happy that I have some free time.
Should.
I am leaving for Cannes tomorrow and have no clue what I should pack and how much. So, instead of thinking what clothes I could wear, I am lying on the floor of my room, in the pile of clothes I pulled out earlier out of my wardrobe and feeling exhausted. Not that I am tired, just I don't want to do anything, I just want to lie here, listening to music and thinking how much I dislike this.
Every normal person would be finished with this task within one hour, but I know I won't even be done when it is time for dinner. When it comes to packing, I am procrastinating so bad, it is even worse than the times I had to revise for a Spanish exam. I rather watch the newest episode of my favourite show that has aired over the weekend (The new episode of Game of Thrones is out today, so I am occupied for one hour, ha-ha) and feeding myself with chocolate. It is not even that I have to pack much, I am only staying for four days.

Not only I should be gathering my things together, I also should learn some french, so that I could have a normal conversation with the host I am staying at, and that I can order a 'Iced Chai Tea Latte with Lactose-free Milk and without Ice' at Starbucks. I highly doubt that I will have Wifi at the place I am staying at, so I need to go Starbucks from time to time. Yes, I admit I am Internet-Addict, but in my generation who isn't?

M(a)y Playlist

I decided I would do once in a while a playlist. Not necessarily to a certain theme, just the songs I am currently listening to and fit my mood at the moment.

BASTILLE - Weight of Living Part I 

THE BEATLES - Strawberry Fields Forever  

DAFT PUNK feat. PHARELL - Get Lucky (Daughter BBC1 Live Lounge Cover) 

HAIM - Don't Save Me 

FOALS - My Number

FLORENCE + THE MACHINE - Over The Love 

HALF MOON RUN - Full Circle 

TOM ODELL - Supposed to Be 

JIMMY HENDRIX - Angel 

ARCTIC MONKEYS - Fire & the Tud 

THE BLACK KEYS - Lonely Boy 

CHVRCHES - Recover 

JUSTICE - On 'N' On 

SBTRKT - Wildfire 

CRYSTAL CASTLES - Celestia 

Photos out of the year - 'Early Days'

Today was the last school day for me and it left me feeling really sad, I have met so many awesome people this year and got to experience a lot of new things. Plus I am really exhausted, due to all the fuss today and the packing up.
So, because I had to look today trough all my files and photo's, I found a lot of material I really want to share. Most of them where photos for photography, many of them I had forgotten that I even have taken them. This is just a small selection of my 'early days', as I like to call them.

This year was one of the best ones in my life. Yes, it hasn't been always so easy, sometimes I was worried about my future and what I am going to to with my life. But after all this time it helped me to grow, to know what I am able to do and who I want to be. I learned not to give up on something that quickly and then throw it away. Sometimes when you give yourself that push and probably you do not have the best feeling about it, sometimes it can lead to the best things. As for me I had to learn to say 'yes' to more things and just this simple 'yes' can bring you so much more opportunities for your life. (Well okay there are still things where you say 'no' to...) This year also started for me with a simple 'yes, I want to do this'. I am really grateful I had the chance to visit such a school, even though only for one, short year. Thank you to all the people who made it so special and my friends and family who supported me through out this year and helped me with all those important decisions, you are the best!

Festival Summer - What's coming up?

Summer is finally arriving here in Switzerland and with it all the great music festivals are back. Last year, I have been to two of the big ones here and I am planning to go to Zurich Openair again.
This year it is the only one to which I really want to go, the others do not have such good line-ups like they did last year. And I realised, not only the line-up is pretty great, this festival has its perks for me:

• As I hate camping in any way and as I live near Zurich, I can easily take a train home as they provide trains during the nights of the festival. So I can get enough sleep, without worrying that some drunken ass is stumbling into my tent and tearing it down. 

• Also I do not have to bring all this camping stuff, like a tent and I can shower every day. I know they provide sometimes showers, but from my experience they are really expensive on some festivals and if they are for free they aren't really clean. Not showering is probably the worst part about camping on the festival area. 

• I do not have to bring a lot of money with me and I can recharge my phone everyday, as you might know iPhones have such bad batteries. 

• Again as it is in the area of Zurich, I know a lot of my friends are going to be there, so I can easily buy a ticket by myself, without looking out for someone tagging along with me. 

So excited about all those amazing acts, that are performing at ZOA.

I haven't got a ticket yet, because I do not know what is still coming on Sunday. Well right now nothing really excites me about it and I might as well buy only a ticket for three days instead of four.
Still, Zurich Openair is a rather new festival in Switzerland, so I guess it's not going to be sold out anytime soon and I can wait with buying a ticket until all the acts are announced.

If someone is interested as well, tickets are available here

Traveling Tanzania: The market and first day on the road

“Once you have traveled, the voyage never ends, but is played out over and over again in the quietest chambers. The mind can never break off from the journey.” – Pat Conroy

This is the second part of the my trip to Africa with my family in 2011. As I was writing the first part I though I could do for everyday we where on the road a separate post. So this is day two.

Sunday - The Market and on the road 

That day we woke up early, because we had a really thigh time schedule that day. After a nice breakfast with tropical fruits, the local coffee and dry cake we met our driver for this week and got some information about the whole journey and some advice. 

We went to the local market there and you cannot compare this to any European market. It seems to be so messy but in a way everything has it own logic. And they do not only sell fruits and spices, they also sell alive chicken and in some way it seemed as if they kill it right there when you bought it. Or you could take it home with a cage. Anyways we had our guide who showed us around, but there was also about 5 other people following us, because it was not common that they see tourist around on a market. They were all really lovely, but for sure they wanted some money. You cannot blame them, they have not that much as we do and living there is a lot harder that it is here. However, you have too look that you have your money in a save place and you do not give too much money, there are many thief around and you have to be careful. 

A salesman in his pile of vegetables and fruit. 

After walking around for a while and taking some pictures with the local people, we went to see the clock tower, which marks the halfway of Cairo - Cape town and the independence monument. We didn't have much time left but we still could go  to this amazing local store where they sell art and jewellery, the local people made. We bough hats for the three young people of us(well my stepbrother and my brother tagged along this journey as well) and nice jewellery. Just after a nice lunch back at the lodge, we went on the road. 

The outdoor dinning area, had a lovely lunch there. 

It was a rather long drive and as everything seems so close in Switzerland, Tanzania had a really different dimension for us. However the drive wasn't boring at all, due to our super good guide and driver Witress. He knew incredibly much about everything, he even learned once Italian in two weeks when he was guiding an Italian family.
Anyways as the drive went on we have seen so many beautiful sceneries already. It is so hard to write about this ride because it was a new experience for me and I couldn't believe I was really there. The time has flown by, we already saw some elephants, a lot of giraffes and some water buffalos, and it was already getting dark. Our guide told us that it wouldn't be save driving around at night without a protector, because it was still a reservation area and wild animals were wandering around at anytime and at night it is harder so see them and sense them. So we had to speed up a bit and I have to say it wasn't the most pleasant ride of my life, because the road has been really bad and with the speed it made it only worse. The lodge we were staying this time at, was in the middle of this park and also it was surrounded by a jungle.
It was a really nice one, again it had a main building and all over the area there where bungalows. However in a way when we first got there I had a deja-vu and I could swear I had seen this place before somewhere else. So the main building was open to all sides and had three floors. Or two, because I think the ground floor you cannot really count. It was an awesome place, I guess it would be easier to have pictures to explain.

Hello there! After a long drive we had a drink before diner, we absolutely deserved that. Also we were pretty happy that we have already seen two animals who belong to the big five. Cheers!

The diner was held outside around a big bonfire and everything was only illuminated by candles and the fire.

Such a nice room, everything was so cozy and made me feel right at home. 

That night i decided I would sleep alone, so my brother slept with my stepbrother in one bungalow and I in another. It might not have been the best idea, because that night I was terrified. Because the lodge was located in a jungle, there have been a lot of monkeys, running over the roof of my bungalow, screaming of course. Anyways as you might know I am still alive and the next morning I decided I would take a bath because the shower -dundundun- was located outside the bungalow and I wasn't that comfortable with this. But I think I should have at least tried it because all of my family said it was really nice looking out in the forest while showering.
Anyways It was a really enjoyable stay at Lake Manyara Tree Lodge and I was so sad to leave, even though I haven't slept that well. The people there were so nice, the food really good and everything made you feel like you were at home. Again I am so thankful that I had the opportunity to stay at a place like this and I hope I will be returning one day.

So more to come, in the next one I will be writing about the longest drive EVER and just a bit of our morning still at the Lake Manyara Lodge, which was at 6am and so beautiful.

All about my previous post about Tanzania can be found here.

Music Saturday

Last Sunday I have been to a music festival in Zurich, where it was a great mix from young local artists and some bigger names but it was still for free. I did not know any of the artists, except my friend who was there singing, so I found two really cool bands.

Oscar and the Wolf 

I wasn't there the whole concert because it was for my taste a little bit too melancholic and I felt not really prepared for this. I am not saying I didn't like them, because if I didn't they would not be in this category. I just think you have to know them before you go and see them, it is not the type of music you just can walk in and jump around to it. 

Turboweekend 

Later in the evening we went to our last concert before everyone had to catch their train home and it happen to be Turboweekend. I wished they would have played a little bit earlier because I didn't get to see the whole concert, because not like Oscar and the Wolf, it was more energetic and you could shake off your ass to their music. 

Those are not only my music-finds of the week, I also got really into the music of HAIM. I bet those girls are getting really big because they where number one on the BBC Sound of 2013 list and they get a lot of attention by the press anyways. But still, their music fits perfectly to to my spring mood. 

Traveling Tanzania: Introduction and Arrival

“All journeys have secret destinations of which the traveler is unaware.” – Martin Buber

Almost two years ago, in fall 2011, I went with my family to Africa. It was such a great journey and I got to experience so many things, I have to do this recap, even though the journey was only 2 weeks long, in parts. I do not know how many parts this will have, I guess this will depend on how much I want to write that day.

The raw beauty of Africa itself and the mentality of the people there was so life changing for me and I learned to appreciate life much more and that nothing is for granted. I am really thankful that I got to visit this beautiful country and I am certainly returning one day to Tanzania. I try to share as much as I can from this wonderful journey even it has been almost two years. So I guess I get started. 

Saturday: Arrival 

The most of this day we were on the plane, obviously. However, because we had the first flight leaving, we got there at about seven o'clock in the evening, the time difference was only about 2 hours. We got through immigration quickly, because we already had the visa and we didn't have to wait to get one as most others had to. If you are travelling to Tanzania or any other country get the visa before your trip, because you save so much time at the immigration. At some countries it is even required you get it before you go. As we had all our things with us we had a taxi picking us up from the airport. Well at the time I though it would only take us a short time to get to the place we were staying at, but as the airport has been a little bit further apart so the drive has been about an hour. 

So we arrived at the Arusha Coffee Lodge, which was a really lovely place in a quiet part of the city, surrounded by coffee farms. It wasn't like an actual hotel, there were little bungalows spread all over the area and there was one big building with the dining area and the reception. The rooms were obviously ready, it was already dark outside. Luckily they served diner until eleven which was nice, so we had the time to got o our rooms, take a shower and change into other clothes. The food was excellent and we all felt a little bit thrown back in time, everything was hold in that classic british style. As usual after a long journey you are a bit tired, so I went straight to bed after diner. Okay like I said I felt like I was in England, so I made me a cup of tea as I got ready for sleeping. The room itself was quite nice, there was a large lounge area, a great bath and a really comfy bed. I wished we could have stayed a little bit longer there, but this wouldn't have been a safari, if we hadn't been everyday at a different place. 

So I know that was a brief introduction and not a long text about out first stop but I takes me a long time to remember everything and put everything in the right order.  However, I really enjoy doing this because I like to fresh up my memory about this amazing trip and before I leave it there, there is this one song that always reminds me of this journey. Always when I hear this track, I immediately think about how we have driven on those endless roads and how my hair flew in the wind. I know that might sound cheesy but when I first saw the clip I seriously cried. Probably because it was about an elephant and Africa itself... I do not know, but it was a little bit how I imagine paradise could be. 

Okay I am serious..

I know, I know, it has been a long time since my last real post, the last one was more whining about not sleeping and how horrible that is. As I have now a short vacation I though I would have time to do take this blogging thing a little bit more seriously, not only because I have a tiny bit more time to spend, also because I should practice my writing skills and soon, after the summer I am going to visit a special school for communication and journalism. I am probably not one of the best, expressing myself in words but I think this is really going to help me to get better and better with writing about the things I like and care about. So I decided, I want to write more about my adventures all around the world with recaps about my recent (or not so recent) trips, things I experience in my everyday life and stuff I like at the time.

I don't want that this blog is like any other lifestyle or fashion or travel blog, I want this to be my own blog where I talk about those things that are important to me, even though no one might read this at all.

Starting with this post right now, I think I might update weekly. I do not want make a fix schedule on updating, that would be too much pressure on me and I probably would give up too soon again.  

Thanks for understanding. Or not.

MIght not fit the content of this post but I like this picture. It took a long time to get it to look like this. 

The last 4 nights I barely got any sleep and I don't know why or what's wrong with me. I know sleeping after school before dinner might not be the best idea but it always worked for me in the past. So this time I though, if I do not get up and eat dinner before, I may could sleep the whole night and be refreshed in the morning. But no, my mom has to ruin it for me because she wanted to talk to me about this. She really thinks I am doing this on purpose, staying up until 4 am and then sleep in the afternoon. Under all of those people I though she might be on of those who understands but obviously she doesn't. She thinks it is my own fault, that I am not tired at all. Hell no, I am fucking tired the whole time, all I want to do is sleep but that doesn't work for me. It is killing me that she is now angry at me because I told her she doesn't understand (which she actually doesn't) and she should leave me alone. All I can do now is crying my eyes out and hoping sleep will find me tonight a little sooner that 4 am. 

And I am seriously thinking about going to my dad's house, even though he and my stepmom are in India and I would be left alone with my stepbrother there. At least he is not judging me for not getting any sleep and maybe he would listen to me. Listening and understanding isn't what people do much these days and I feel a little bit left alone. 

Btw I know I made a lot of mistakes, but I do not care today. Obviously my brain isn't working properly. 

Three (Two) Things - Friday

It has been a week since my last post and it has been a really lazy week for me. There’s only 23 days of school left and attending class is pretty much more or less voluntary, so I have been sleeping in the whole week and went to school in the afternoons because I do not have those cool programmes like Photoshop and Indesign on my computer. Before I could ever install those I have to buy me a new computer, I am pretty sure they won't work properly on my old Macbook. But I cannot really afford buying a new one, so let's not talk about it.

Anyways I really would like to write about the weather and how much I love spring, but that would be not true. We had here some periods where it was warm you had the feeling spring is coming but then BAAM it was snowing again. You have to be kidding me, I cannot stand this white fluffy thing anymore. As much I love winter and going skiing, three months are enough and at the end of March you expect a little more sun and a little bit less clothing. 

So I write about three other things, just as last week that I liked instead of the snow.

1. APTE NAVY SEQUIN BLAZER by maje 

I got this blazer last week as gift from my parents because I got accepted at a special school for communication and a journalism. Well I have to say going to this school wasn't my first joyce, I would have rather gone to one of the art schools here (I was too young to apply at one of those, which was pretty sad) but I am glad I have been given this opportunity to complete an education in something I have been interested as well.
Back to the blazer, I didn't wish for it because I wasn't really expecting anything for getting accepted. However my stepmother had a similar one before in black and she must have remembered that I loved hers so much that she and my dad got the same one in navy blue for me.

You can wear it to a lot of things, casual or fancy, it makes every outfit unique. I love it so much, I guess this jacket is going to be one of my favourite pieces of clothing in my wardrobe this year.

Okay I just found out that this blazer is part of the collection Alex Chung did for Maje. "Majed by Alexa Chung" 

2. Burberry shows

Even though I haven't been to any of their shows and it is really unlikely that I ever get to go to one, lately I was watching their past shows and they have all been perfection. The location, the music and the models, everything fits the fashion so well. Since I was 10 I have been of a fan of the classic Burberry fashion, when my dad took me to one of their stores because he was looking for a gift. These days I find my self often looking in one of their shop windows, always telling myself that one day I can afford a nice coat from there.
Christopher Bailey is a really great designer for Burberry and I like how he reinvented the classical trench coat in the new collection with patterns, metal waist belts and different materials.

In their last show (Prorsum Autumn/Winter 2013) Tom Odell was singing live there and you know how much I love Tom Odell. Pure Perfection.

I could say so much more about their amazing fashion and how much I love them, but I am way to lazy to think about I can write that so I let it speak for itself. Enjooooy.

Okay I am way too lazy and too hungry to write about another thing, so i just leave you with a song from 'Peace'.

Happy Easter by the way, I am going to stay inside for these four days and snuggle in my bed because guess what: it is snowing again. Ugh I hate this, spring where are you?

... and sorry when it is bothering you that I may make some terrible mistakes but I use this blog also as practice for my english writing skills. Hope you do not mind too much and it is not too bad.

Weekend!

Thank god it is friday! After  this week I do not want to write much because my brain is pretty much useless at the moment so I leave you with a song for the weekend. I discovered it last night when I stayed at a friends house with my some of my closest friends. We danced with that song while we were cooking, it was such a good night. With those friends I could imagine living together and spending most nights like this.

But enough of bad grammar and boring sentences. 

The song. So amazing. 

Three Things - Wednesday

A lot is going on in my life, but I do not want to bore anyone with my normal day life. As exciting it could be for me, sometimes it is way to much to write about so I am sharing just three little things I am loving or interested in at the moment. Maybe I am going to do that weekly, I'll see.

1. Kunsthaus Zurich

Probably my favourite room at the museum, Monet and Rodin combined. 

The first one would be the local art museum we have visited yesterday with our school. Probably this will be always one of my favourite places to go, I love the art there so much. It has so many different artist from different decades and styles, and as for me always a different experience when I am going there. For example this time, our professor gave us a little tour of the modern art part and I saw some of the paintings that I though they did not make any sense to me in a whole other light. I cannot say I like them now but I understand them now.

After that tour, we had a little bit time to look around on our own. We also had to think what is the difference between the modern art and those from the other centuries. What has changed over the years? 

2. Journal 

In the last couple of week, I have started to write in a journal all of the thoughts of me that could be important, because before that I tend to forget those thoughts and ideas again and I would be seriously pissed at myself for forgetting them. It helps me so much out in my daily life, always when I see something that inspires me or I have something to remember I write it down in my little book. 

For a stranger it might look like a mess but I makes sense to me. 

Note in my journal of the recent visit to the museum

Okay If I am honest I have three different little books. One for art history and other school stuff (the middle one), a sketch book, obviously for sketching (the under one) and the top one, which is for notes, stories and inspiration. I use this one the most. 

3. Tom Odell

Okay, Tom Odell is absolutely amazing! I cannot stop listening to his music, even though sometimes it is not more than his voice and his piano it show so much emotions. I was hocked since the day I stumbled across 'Another Love' on YouTube and now it has become in a short time to one of my most played songs on iTunes.

So I think I am going to share this amazing song with the internet. Enjoy!

Ugh, okay this took me so much longer as I expected, I had so much trouble with the pictures and the video. But anyways I am really proud of me that I made such a long, second blog entry! And I really hope I am going to make some more in the future and I am not giving up too soon on this.
Cheers!

e-llo

As I have some time to waste, creating a blog would be a great idea. Well not really, because first of all I actually do not have that much time and second I am way to lazy to customise my blog. However, on the other side I wanted to start a blog so bad, as a place where I could share my thoughts, talk about my daily life and practice my english writing skills. Probably no one cares but so do my friends. They like to talk about their selfs and their problems but they rarely listen to me and help me with my problems. Whatever, so I rather tell it the internet, oh how ironic!

It already late in the evening so I am going probably figure out how my blog should look like.